Retreat coming to an end..

Its been quite some time since I came to update stuff. Guess it gets kind of easy to develop into a lazy habit over time... Haha, and its amusing to see people getting annoyed at having no idea what i'm up to. Ok, enough of sadistic and unuseful ramblings..

During the 2 mths back in NS, there's no such thing as internet access at the work place. After work, its back to meeting friends and such, hence the priorities are all given to all these things. The motivation to blog seem to come when there's time & not much urgent things to do. Or is it the pains of certain things that made me run away?

Hence after Ns ended. I entered into a mode of reflection to repair much of the stuff that was eating away in my mind. It included sleeping for many hours. Eat sleep, eat sleep is all I did for a weekend. Surprisingly, regenerative sleeping takes up so much energy..

Then the next step was to organize my life and environment. Includes cleaning and scrubbing all my room furnitures and barang, clearing thousands of emails..., cleaning car, settling all those minor minor things which didn't seem so minor when put together..., creating database of friends etc. And getting a new clothings... expensive work.

The physical organization was pretty much done last week. Now leaves the brain and heart that needs some organization. Afterall, the life of a working adult requires many skills and emotional mastery to excel.

These 2 weeks would be dedicated to such stuff. When I am finished with sorting things to a higher level. An improved me would be out to do great things in this world. Plan more and less action, or more action and less planning? Whichever works best is what we all seek. I wonder if impatience is a factor.

Daily Reads

I've added a link under subscriptions. Seetanx for listing all my daily reads of webpages, blogs, and stuff.

Kinda weird way to put a list. Inspired by weirdo nick. But it serves its purpose and I won't forget to read stuff when i'm surfing outside.

Those interested can check them out too. Your links might be there if I remembered. Lolz

 Towards & Away Values

The past few weeks was a great time of inner contemplation and revelation for me. Most significantly, after hearing Adam speak about Values at POE 19 a few days ago, I started to list out mine and this began a journey of reflection on how things had been for me in the past 25 yrs.

Basically, my top 3 Towards Values are

1) Winning           2) Love          3) Excellence.

This means that I naturally do things to fulfill these 3 criteria. They are important to me perhaps due to the circumstances I grew up in, or maybe I was born with them. Nevertheless, I enjoy winning, receiving and giving love, and I desire to become the best in what I do.

Unfortunately, values sometimes contradict and sabotage each other. At times I dare not champion what I believe is right because I do not want to hurt the feelings of people. At times when I have the chance, I dare not shine and show my brillance because it might make others look at me differently. The contradictions is tormenting sometimes, and I think all of us have that some time or another.

My top 3 Away from Values are

1) Being Weak or Lousy      2) Losing       3) Hurt

Simply speaking, I hate to look weak, lose, and be hurt. And at times, I will do whatever it takes to avoid being in situations that make me face feel them. While they serve to make me take steps to become stronger, they also deprive me of many opportunities. Come to think of it, I seem to have missed out on lots of self training and practice due to these egoistic reasons.

Perhaps they explain why I am still small and insignificant at this point of time. Perhaps it is also some of my opposing beliefs and silly thinking that needs to be challenged, destroyed or transformed, so that they can complement with who I am on the inside.

At the same time, I also feel very powerful and complete, but it only comes out at times. Ah life is so interesting. With so many things on the outside and inside to conquer, love, and make shinier, each day can be so fulfilling.

Ah yes, and more action and less talk!

 Version 7

Version 7 of my boardgame was put to its ultimate test on Wed night by good players like Vera, Alex and Yong Zhi. Seems like more work needs to be done before it reaches its epitome in version 10.

The new name given by Alex is Tragedy farm. Which is a pretty much bigger tragedy if kids find it so. Alex's counter spells comment also helps.

Vera's contributions are much appreciated. They are good, and will appear in V8 soon.

Yong Zhi seemed pretty much ok with stuff. Which is good feedback also.

Nevertheless, the ultimate version which will blow the world apart is nearing its appearance. I humbly behold its creations.

Muahahahar

 Graduation & DnD Pictures Revealed

Pictures speak a thousand words. This post is like a thesis already! Haha

We're outside the Reception area. Its hot in that robe. Or is it just my heart? ; )

I've never seen my dad that goofy before. Thanks to Yz's candid shots!

At last we meet up with Karen. She's so nicely dressed for us 

Waiting and I sitting dangerously on a roof. Is that the new Biomedical building?...

Yongzhi and Karen chilling out. I wonder what is my camera pouch doing at his groin..

Cyrilla and Pamela at their Material Science Graduation reception. Ain't they cute? ; )

Wow, Charlotte got suitors~

The early comers for the DnD. AKA those that waited the longest... Lolz

Mervin and his wife Renee. They cleverly kept their baby girl at home~

One Wee in between two Seets. Double trouble! Haha

Take Wee smiling happily in between two Akltg participants. Doesn't spell trouble. Lol

I'm so lucky I could tear...~

Haha what a fantastic candid shot! I can't stop laughing!!! Check out Junxiang's look~

Ah, our recomposed brilliant smiles infront of the grand piano while waiting dinner!

Check out Collin's cool-ing hairdo. And Waiting's piggy face. Haha!

Charlotte and Seetha got strange habits. Haha sweet~

The full Table number 12 with Darren in.. plus one more Waiting! As always, everyone is part of this big happy family~

The continuous chain of interesting and exciting events bring closure to all our hardwork and efforts spent in Ntu. Now at last, we can go forth with valor and peace of mind into a bright and wonderful future filled with adventures and challenges.

I wish all those who were there with us in body or in spirit, a blissfully loving, wonderful and safe journey through life!